As you read through these stories, please remember that grief is not linear nor does it look the same on any two people. If interested in sharing your story, please email rachaelcerrotti gmail. We were walking together as a couple. He with brain cancer and a backpack with a treatment device in it. Me with a pregnant belly. The chord between the arrays on his head and the backpack on my back felt like an umbilical chord. It felt like if I carried some of his weight, maybe I could hold onto him. First you adjust to the mental confusion and then you adjust to the person not being able to be your intellectual partner and then I had to adjust to the fact that he couldn't walk properly without my help and then I had to adjust to the fact that he couldn't talk and couldn't respond verbally to me.

And then he couldn't even open his eyes And the crazy thing about that whole period is that I have never in my life felt so connected to somebody.

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Marriage and love doesn't actually require, and it is good to hear myself say this, lots of shared activity. We were just connected to the core. And so when there was nothing else to do, but lay next to each other and hold each other's hand, our marriage was totally intact and I knew where I stood with him and he knew where he stood with me and we were at peace. I am learning that me being strong in grief is getting out of my comfort zone, telling the story, sitting with the emotions, showing these emotions, talking about it with others, going to my boss and saying 'I need tomorrow off because I am having a rough week.

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He would write me poems starting in the first weeks of our relationship. Together, lying, touching skins, sweet tingles from within. Up we jump and hit the floor, a trail, a ride, a local tour. The things we find for us to play, laughing, smiling through the day.


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Back to bed, thats for sure, cuddle with you till I snore. I grew up in a church. Yeah, I pushed some rules here and there, but for the most part I have been a rule follower. I think that I questioned if I hadn't been faithful enough, that this was something I had to go through. But, then if I study the word and I talk to pastors, I know that is not how God operates. I truly believe He doesn't do that. I needed a challenge, something different, something to keep my mind busy.

I began to think about going back to school. The idea was frightening—could I concentrate? I gathered my courage and drove the fifty miles to the university.


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I recall how my heart pounded as I walked through the campus and into the student center. The appearance of my would-be classmates had certainly changed. The casualness of their dress and their long hairstyles were a far cry from school days I remembered. I wondered if someone who only months before, as PTA president, had gone before the school board to protest the wearing of pants by girls could adjust to it.

My first exam was a computer test—I had never even heard of a computer test! Many times I wondered if I had made a mistake, but when the quarter ended and my grades came, it was exciting. I could learn anything I wanted to! Something good was happening to me. Back to school I went. They were four long, hard years, filled with study, but also filled with the struggle to find myself, to build a new life and regain that feeling of self-worth so essential to our existence.

I soon learned that there are special times when loneliness comes—holidays, anniversaries, birthdays, even weekends. Looking ahead and planning for these times helped them pass more easily. Family was always my first resource, when they were available. There is nothing like the loving arms of a grandchild thrown wildly about your neck to drive away feelings of loneliness and rejection.

Christmas and other holidays find my home filled with joyous fun and laughter as thoughtful children bring their families and we love and enjoy one another. It is as important to them as it is to me to remember the happy times we have had and to build memories for their own children. We all make special efforts to help each other during these times.

What is the right thing to do? Well fine, but he did and I agreed.

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I just wish I could sort out my feelings, myself, without allowing influence. This is a tough question because it depends on you. Will you be o. If you can see the reason for not following his wishes and are at peace with it then regrets will not follow you.

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Go with your heart! How do I handle the holidays in a healthy way? You may wish to avoid the whole season by going away or sleeping through it!

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You may also feel guilty if you do go out and have some fun! During the holiday season grieving is even more difficult so here are a few tips to help you: Be with those who understand your loss and give yourself permission to grieve. Here is a link to my Holidays and Special Occasions Guide. It is filled with tips, support and encouragement to help you through the holidays. Her husband was 56 and everyone admired his way of taking care of his health.

As a widow I understand her pain and I want to help her. I saw your book advertised on CTV and I feel sure that this book will give her hope and peace. Yes, as a gift it shows that you understand and care about her grief. The Sisterhood of Widows is a collection of stories from 16 different widows who talk about their own grief. How can I feel better about myself? I hit the bars 7 days a week not that person which was a quick fix. Probably dated too soon for fear of being alone, angry, faced fears of handling thing myself, finances, insecurities, emptiness, and a big void in my heart that still exists.

They think they do I was not myself for at least the first three years. We have to heal emotionally and that takes time. In the meantime you need to look after yourself in all aspects: