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Sutherland, the only person he feels he can connect with. When James finally puts a voice to his feelings, Mr. Sutherland's response isn't what James had hoped for. James is a young boy who struggles as the outsider at his school. Sutherland, is the only person he feels he can connect with.

James is the most emotionally powerful film of this year's Sundance lineup, and through superior writing creates a worthy addition to this over-exposed genre. In documenting a universal experience among gays and lesbians, he discovers a new angle, crafting a story that is of course personal and local, but also challenges all viewers, not just those who are queer, with questions regarding teachers and students, that resonate in our culture.

What I love, being again someone who likes to think about films, to chew on the topics and questions they present, is the ambiguity that is present in the film.


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James comes out to his teacher, yet does not get the kind of warm response he desired. He is instead gently rebuffed from leaning upon the older man for support. Interestingly though, his teacher reveals that he was not surprised by James announcement. He also mentions somewhat forlornly about a boy a "few years back" who came out and had great difficulties, when he warns James to continue to keep his sexuality a secret.

Is the teacher gay as well? That is the reading I got. And it lends an even greater sadness to the film, as it suggests that the nature of closeting oneself off continues through time. That even though the teacher understands James' situation, he is psychologically unable to reveal himself in a true friendship. A second possibility is that the instructor feels empathy, but needs to push James away as a matter of perception. That, perhaps especially by being in a Catholic school setting, it would be too easily misunderstood by others for him to be engaging in such a personal relationship with a young student.

If that is the case it is tragically ironic, that the fear of, and potential for an inappropriate relationship, directly drives James into that exact situation. It is these kind of deep readings which I find rare in the rather literal world of short film, and so i do appreciate it when I find them. With it also being a film that stuck with me for some time after watching it, I find it easy to heartily recommend James.

An adolescent boy, who serves the military forces, experiences homosexual feelings towards one of his comrades. In talking about this you might feel some guilt or discomfort but please know from when we chatted a few months ago, I know you're a great dad, so nothing about that is in question. It's all about how you're feeling. Let's make a pact. I won't judge anything you say but you're not allowed to either.

There is a Beyond Blue help line that is available 24 hours a day. You are welcome and encouraged to use it if you need to and if you have thoughts of death or dying or anything like suicide, you must call the folks on that number, they WILL help. I'm not sure how this thread ended up in this section.

I suppose because I mentioned death. I still think it should be where it was initially but never mind. I do have a gp and am on an antidepressant but I don't think it is doing very much. I'm thinking of coming off it. Might try and find a new doctor as my current one keeps brushing me off. Having children is a huge change and I'm not sure I was ready for it.

Given that I feel like I would be more suited to a same sex relationship I probably shouldn't have had kids.


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  • This could be very confusing for them down the track if I do eventually come out or end my marriage. But I love them dearly and still believe I can be s good father if they want me. Our moderators will move any posts that mention thoughts of death or suicide to this forum. It's an automatic safety thing. I reckon your suggestion of finding a GP who you feel more comfortable with is a great idea. Can you keep me updated with how that goes? I have absolutely no trouble telling people about myself, but I think it's like any type of friendship or relationship or mateship or even an interaction with a colleague - there will be people we are comfortable with and feel a rapport and those who we just don't.

    I've found an awesome GP and a great psychiatrist and they are phenomenally helpful. Having kids is a HUGE change! I was present at the birth of my nephew my sister's son and there for the first week. The changes I observed in her and her husband were astounding, there's so much to learn and do and so much bloody sleep to miss out on! The thing was that my sis said even though she read books 4, of them she is a bloody bookworm I don't think anyone is really ready for kids.

    But as you say, you love them dearly and I know man dads who are gay who love their kids just the same as anyone else and the kids are amazing as well. Let's run a scenario - Imagine you ARE in a same sex relationship and you had kids by whatever means with your partner. What would be different? Can you step me through? I know this doesn't exactly address your situation but I think it might help to step through. The last paragraph you wrote conveys some pretty strong emotions - I really sense them and understand the upset. I'd like to talk more about the last paragraph next time we write after we walk through your walk through of the scenario I gave.


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    • It has taken me a while to reply as the last few days have been pretty hectic. I understand what you are saying about why the post has ended up in this section. I am pretty old fashioned when it comes to families. I see a family as a mum, a dad and kids. I believe in kids having a man and a woman as their parents. That is how I was brought up and they are the values my family have instilled in me I guess.

      I don't have anything against same sex couples having kids but it just seems unfair on the kids to me. I worry about them getting teased and bullied by other kids. School children can be very cruel.. I worry about all of these things. In terms of finding a new doctor I know I need to but keep putting it off.

      I never feel comfortable with doctors. They make me feel anxious. I also don't like talking about my mental health or personal issues with strangers so that is going to be tough.. Family values are something that is precious to us all and no one can dictate how you should raise your kids a health professional will NOT do this. I understand and respect that you don't like to talk to strangers about how you feel.

      Please keep in mind that any professional you talk to is bound by law and ethics to maintain complete secrecy. When you visit, they are going to be focussing on your mental health and ensuring you are OK, they may perhaps talk about how to manage some of the emotions that are flying around inside and also the emotions that used to fly around inside.

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      You can choose the time to tell them you are gay, perhaps that might be after a few visits and you feel comfortable with them and they aren't a stranger anymore. Can you tell me what you'd like to gain from the forums here at Beyond Blue so we can help you achieve what you need to feel well again?

      What I really want to achieve is to share how I'm feeling and to gain advice and or perspective from others. I don't expect a magical fix but I just want some guidance on what I should do in my situation. Ultimately it is my decision and I know that. No one can make the decision for me but at the moment it just seems too confusing and too hard to tackle so I pretend it's not there and just keep going. I wonder if any other married men can relate to my post or have been through a situation like this and are on the forum?

      If so I would like to know how they got through this. I'm not after sympathy or just having a whinge I just want to hear how others would go about dealing with being gay but married to a woman. Hi Steven, hope you don't mind me joining in here and I hope my thoughts don't upset you I am now on my second marriage and a good bit older than you so I might be seeing things a bit differently but, for what it's worth, I think marriages only truly work if both partners are honestly happy and fulfilled in the marriage - and I mean honestly and I mean both.

      You have much to consider and decide concerning your own life, but so does your wife - whether she knows it or not. I guess what I'm trying to say, not so subtly, is that the future of your marriage doesn't just depend on whether you as a gay man can or wants to stay with a woman.

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      To put it bluntly, it is equally about whether your heterosexual wife wants a gay husband, or would be happier having the freedom to find a partner who is sexually attracted to her. In my opinion, if you love her and respect her, and see her as more than just the bearer of your children, this is something you both need to consider. I very much understand where you are coming from! I grew up in a very strongly religious family, and if I reflect I would say at some level I knew I was attracted to men probably around the same time as you.

      But I tried very hard to do what was expected of me, and I dated a couple of girls, and eventually married. I was married for 15 years, and have three lovely kids, who are now 13, 10 last week! I spent a good fraction of those 15 years in a pretty dark place and was on antidepressants about half that time. I was able to blame it even partly to myself on trying to write a PhD which I managed eventually , and on the trauma of one of my kids being very sick as an infant.

      But really, in that small part of me that could be honest with myself, the real problem was, like you, that I was living a lie. Eventually, I felt that I had to admit it mostly to myself , that I am gay. I felt like I would lose everything, but once I had admitted it to myself, I told my wife the next morning.

      I love and respect her, and it was important to me to tell her. We separated amicably shortly after. I told my parents a couple of days after I told my wife actually by email - they were living in the country, and I knew I couldn't do it over the phone. It was a good move. Time to compose your thoughts was good for me and good for them.

      They were very surprised, but have been a rock solid support. My ex wife is an awesome woman, and although some of it has been emotionally hard for both of us, she has been constructive and understanding throughout. As I said, my parents have been awesome, and the rest of my family have been fine too. Being a part-time single parent was really hard, but as I've relaxed a bit and as the kids have grown up it has got much easier. I have a lovely partner - we've been together a couple of years, and my ex wife has a new partner too. He's lovely and loves the kids too.

      I've rambled on long enough for one post, but if you want to know more about my story, I'm happy to share it. Welcome to posting on here. Thanks for sharing part of your story. I think it helps to know things can get better. I am encouraged by what has happened for you. Thanks from me as well for sharing your story. It seems that one of the important points of your experience is that you came out to yourself before you came out to others.

      I think that would be really important when it comes time to sharing emotions with others and dealing with some of the difficulties and questions as well. Coming out to yourself, and accepting that this is just how you are is the hardest step, at least it was for me. One thing I forgot to say earlier which I think is also important is that I feared that by coming out I would lose everything, but it never occurred to me to think about what I might gain.

      Quite aside from feeling much less unhappy and stressed straight away in spite of the sadness and difficulties , I also discovered there are lots of men like me - who have been married but are gay. I also met lots of lovely caring people who understood where I was coming from, having experienced something similar themselves. Several guys gave me their phone numbers very clearly saying they were not trying to hit on me, and that I should call them if I ever felt at a loss.

      I never needed to, but just knowing that there were people out there who understood and who cared enough to do that was a lovely encouraging thing. I have also made several wonderful friends, one in particular who is also a parent though his kid is grown up , and he comes over for dinner and the kids adore him. He's the person I unload my worries on, and he has a fund of wisdom and experience, and a wicked twinkle in his eye.

      I guess the point I hope you get is that as well and the things you might lose, there are also things to be gained. I think most guys in our situation would tell you that they have gained much more than they lost in a whole-of-life view. Thank you so much for your post. It made me feel a lot better and gives me some hope for the future. I would love to know more about how you explained things to your children and how they reacted. Your children are a fair bit older than mine but one of my concerns is how me coming out might impact on them.

      Thank you so much for pointing out that there are positives too. I tend to focus on all the negative aspects all the time and really need to stop doing that. I have found happiness I never even realised life contained. Of course, it is not the case that life suddenly becomes easy. My life long susceptibility to anxiety and depression hasn't gone away entirely, but without a doubt I'm in a vastly better place. My ex wife and I were very much in agreement that we should be up-front though age appropriate with the kids, and I think we made the right call I'll come back to that in a bit.

      We sat them down and explained through our tears that I had decided that it was not right for me to be together with a woman, and if maybe I had another partner in the future it would be a man. I don't think it meant a whole lot to them then, but it laid a foundation.

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      Only my eldest really got the gist, but as the following story suggests, it didn't really sink in. A few months later, once I was established in an apartment near-by, my eldest asked "Dad, why do you have a double bed? I replied that the two younger kids often climbed in with me during the night and it would be a bit squashy in a single bed.

      They've met several of my gay mates, and of course my partner. We don't live together, but he stays over often. The reason I reckon we made the right call, is that anecdotally, the younger the kids, the less of a deal it is. Let me offer a caveat, which is if you decide to come out, let it be for you - because you've decided that is what you need to do. Doing it or not doing it "for the sake of the kids" is not a good reason. Thanks very much for replying so promptly and for your words of wisdom. It sounds like you and your ex-wife have done a remarkable job explaining it all to your children.

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